Pretending

I thought at first being with you is the great moment of my life
We don’t even argue or fight
But instead our relationship filled of understanding.
I thought that this relationship would be last forever.

A lot of challenges, triumphs to our relationship
And we manage to survive.
Until one day I get pregnant.
And we decided to get tie knots.

As years pass by in our married life
It’s began to have misunderstanding
You became interesting to other woman
And that was hurting me so much.

I never thought that you would do that
Because I thought that you really loves me.
But it’s happen, and I cried a lot.
For I wasn’t even tried to look other man but only you.

I decided to go back to my parents
We separated for six months
We don’t talk no make love.
Others say how can I manage that kind of situation

Now, when we had cold fight you said
That I don’t have sense of responsibilities
You never see any good things that I’ve done
And I’m a pain in your ass for I’m being stupid of what you tell me to do.

But I will never be stupid if you clearly said the things I will do.
I’m asking you to repeat what you’ve said
But instead you say that I’m deaf and you never repeat what you have said.
If you think that I’m not good person
Why are you allowed to be tie knot with me?

Right now, I’m pretending that I’m happy to be with you
Every time we made love again pretending that I really feel it
I have to pretend because of our children; even I know it’s unfair.
But I have to live with it. And maybe someday I will feel again the love that we used to have.