What if I don't want to talk?

by Anna   May 23, 2005


What if I don't want to talk to someone about the thoughts in my head?
What if they're too private and mixed up to be shared?
What if this perfect stranger smile, judeges, and looks disgusted as she makes me show my arms?
What if this person stereotypes self harm?

I know you think its for the best
You think it'll help me clear up this mess
But I'm just not sure it's going to help
And that's coming from me, I know myself

What is she listens but understands me wrong?
What if I cry when I tell her what's gone on?
What if there's nothing to say about the way I feel and think?
And what if she doesn't see that some days I'm on the brink?

I know that it probably really is for the best
I should talk to this person about my mess
But some days I'm scared of needing this help
I feel so numb inside, I've lost myself.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Paige aka Kayla

    Hey anna! that poem was great! i loved it! and i can sadly say that i relate to your poem! i too have been through some bad things in my life! and everyone thinks that i should just talk to someone about whats going on inside my mind! but like you i dont know if i want too! i think that its because of what they might think of me! and i dont like being judged like that by people i dont know! its hard for me to live my life always having these mixed up emotions in my mind with noone to share then with!
    is not very good to have to encounter something like this in life! and i just with that it would all go away!
    Well gtg! if you EVER want to tlak im ALWAYS here! if u wanna chat my email is
    cutepurplepuppy@hotmail.com! email me anytime you need to talk! because i think that we would get along great! we both share the same emotions in life!
    Love Paige
    (my real names Kayla btw!)
    please look at my poems! and comment on them too if you dont mind!
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

  • 19 years ago

    by littleshadowgirl

    i feel the pain i love your poems they are really awsome

  • 19 years ago

    by Jordan

    This poem was so good. Thank you for commenting on my bulimic poem. Right now I'm really struggling and it helps alot that people help me through this. Thanks again.
    Much Love
    Jordan-Paige

  • 19 years ago

    by XKt_ShellyX

    Oh darling I love you so much!
    This is a great poem n it must be so hard, I hope it does help you to talk about things. Even to this stranger, but they will understand, thats there job.
    I'm always here for you. I know you know that...
    I hope it all goes ok

    Love shelly moo
    xxx

  • 19 years ago

    by Treakle

    I had to go to counselling once, because i was anorexic, don't be too worried if you haven't yet been, it really helped me, i think thats what you're writing about. i hope it goes well for you xx

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