My insecurities

My insecurity is something
I have trouble trying to fight
No matter how much I try
I cant seem to get it right

This has turned into a struggle
To hold my head up high
I keep my smile broadened
Even though inside I cry

There is nowhere to run away
From myself I want to hide
Only when I'm alone
Do my insecurities subside

Worried about friends and family
No one I hate more than me
Things shouldnt have got this bad
So why can nobody see?

I want to be someone else
Anyone other than who I am
But nobody anywhere can see why
They just don't understand

These little insecurities
Eating away inside my mind
They wont ever leave me alone
I want to leave them all behind

Like Pandora's box
They manage to escape
Cause havoc, pain and distress
And leave me to contemplate

Why me? I wonder in my head
Over and over again
Yes I may overcome this
But things will never be the same

All I want is to make you proud
So I pretend that I'm not hurt
To make you think I'm not like "her"
It may be me you next desert

These insecurites making life hard
Making me wear this costume
Making me feel worthless
It's my whole body they consume