My last try

Your silence bites into my heart deeper than a knife-
i wish i could tell you my pain and let you know my strife.
you told me that you loved me once-upon-a-time-
but you left me in a heartbeat and i knew you'd never be mine.
i hated her for what she'd done to you and everything you said-
i helped you hold on when you'd tell me you wanted to be dead.
you flattered me with your gentle way-
and i gave myself to you that cold and fateful day.
we agreed to keep our secret locked inside our hearts-
if our friends found out, everything would fall apart.
a few words slipped, and the truth was out-
you turned away from me-your true feelings shadowed in doubt.
i tried to make us better and try to right the wrong-
but you can't let it go although it's been so long.
the pain I've felt has been to harsh and now I've lost this fight-
i want to turn back the time and do what would be right.
but now it's become too late and soon you will regret-
that you chose to go to her and it was me you did forget.
tonight i tried to fix the past by showing up there-
but you just turned away with her and my pain was too much to bear.
i sat alone and cried without hope of and end-
to my bitter tears that you had strove to send.
i want to end this hatred which from nothing did spark-
I'm still yours though you destroyed my loyal heart.
i sit here now worth a blade in my hand-
my life sifting away like winds upon the sand.
but the thought of another keeps me alive-
but my heart is torn apart and i shall do nothing but survive.
i have drowned myself in tears-
and now i have cast away my fears.
now i expose my anger and despise-
which almost led to my demise.
just like the one in Poison Tree-
I'll lock my wrath until you see-
I'm not just a toy that you can use and throw aside-
but I'll sit alone and bide
my time until you come to me
and ask for me back and I'll then be free
of this binding hate formed of love and lies
then you will hear my final cries.
maybe when she drops you again-
you'll turn to me as a loyal friend
but tonight i gave this my last try
so all i can do is sit silently by...