A letter to Dad

I feel so mixed up
when HE calls you a prick
i don't know what to say
i feel like been sick.

I see HIM with his girls
and it makes me feel mad
we never spend time together
i feel so jealous and sad.

I want to cry on your shoulder
and let it all out
but instead i get angry
and feel the need to shout.

i hear off me friends
that they have great times with their dads
mum tells me your not worth it
and not to get involved with lads.

i feel older and mature enough
to make my own decisions
but still i only see you
when mum gives me her permission

i do not understand
why you treat me different to Grace
she only lives with you
cos she needed her own space.

i envy her so much
for seeing you every day
Dad i really need you
love you always, love Faye xxx