And I'm lost again.
God, why do you do this to me?!
You've turned me over to Satan again.
You've let him take over my soul to control my every thought,
And now I'm filled with hatred and evil.
I've emptied from my soul all good that I once had.
I'm overcome with confusion and anger as I tear my delicate flesh with the blessed blade of my sacred scissors.
These blades are what keeps me alive.
I live for the moment to feel the ice cold sensation
as I release all of my pain from within.
I see and feel the presence of all that is destroying me and I try to cut them away.
I feel the demons of my blackened soul taking over my every being.
When will they give up and destroy me, instead of making me suffer in this hell we call "life"?!
When will these monsters leave me alone and move on to someone who actually deserves all of this pain?
What did I do to make them pick me?
Why me?
These demons are my worst nightmare. They're like the monsters in my closet that haunt my life with their games and tricks.
But why me?
What have I done to deserve this pain and suffering that they cause me?
When will they make me suffer no longer?
When will I die?!
