You dont know whats going on inside of me

People think that just because I'm a guy
I don't cry
They think i have no problems
and that I'm carefree
But they don't see what's really going on
inside of me
How i wish i was away from this world
so i wouldnt have to suffer anymore
but it's to late because my world is torn apart
Just when i thought i had healed
just when i thought i had concealed
all of the wounds that broke apart my heart
I was proved wrong
This world just isn't fair
The ones you loved are now gone
and there's no one to respond
to my cries deep down inside
I'm screaming for someone
to tell me that they care
but it's just like no one is there
My time is running out
with each last breath i take
at first i thought doing this would be a mistake
Then it came to me that no one cares what happens to me
So i write the last few words of this letter
As i start to feel the pain getting deeper inside
I can't hide it anymore
Everyone sees me as someone who always smiles
and is there to tell a joke
They think my life is perfect
But for anyone who thought that I'm here to set the record staight
My life is just one big hell opening gate
And now i quit this letter
Because it's my time to go
I just wanted everyone to know
Thanks for not listening when I was screaming inside!
Thanks for not listening when I needed someone to confide in!
Thanks for showing me life is worthless and has no point
Finally i can leave this pain behind
and maybe find a little happiness somewhere else
But for now i'm gone
The people who said love lasts forever lied
Which is exactly what caused my suicide