True Feelings

My true feelings kept inside
Everything I've tried to hide
But i can't take it anymore
I'll tell you everything, I'll let it pour

Every night i sit and cry
The knife in my hand, you cannot pry
I sit and watch myself bleed
This is how my pain is freed

I just try to relieve the pain
But it always comes back again
I don't really see the use
In living for all this pain and abuse

Maybe it will all end someday
After the hurt and pain go away
Then i will be able to live my life
Never again picking up that knife

But for now its all I've got
I don't now if I'll live or not
I will keep trying as hard as i can
To get happy, thats the plan