A Torn Goodbye

I hate it that I'm so upset,
I hate it that sometimes I cry.
I hate that I'm so full of regret,
I hate having to say goodbye.

Goodbye to all the hopes I gained,
Of having you by my side.
Getting back to the friendship I know remained,
Trying to build back up my pride.

But how do you get back to how things were,
Once everythings crossed the line?
How do you get back when it's no longer pure?
How do you act like everythings fine?

My tears are proof that I'm not ok,
Because I suffer from a broken heart.
Now I'm trying to push you away,
Even if you don't think that's very smart.

Everything seemed to happen so fast,
I was swept right off of my feet.
All of the feelings that arose from our past,
Made everything feel so sweet.

I think that I have loved you forever,
That's why it hurts so deep.
I didn't question it once not never,
Now I don't know what to pray for when I sleep.

I'll just pray it will all soon disappear,
And a smile will return on my face.
But with that smile lies my greatest fear,
Because it may not be you to put it back in place.