When you don’t want a relationship, someone asks you out. Why.
When you do want a relationship, no one wants you. Why.
When you admit to a guy that you like him and likes you, does nothing happen. Why.
When a guy you only want to be mates with asks you out, and then you say no, hates your guts. Why.
Why does all this have to happen to me.
Why can’t I just find a decent guy and have a decent relationship. Why.
Because all the decent guys I know are taken or in another country.
Why does suicide seem the only good thing in my life right now. Why.
Because I can’t handle anyone close to me, no one is allowed into my personal space,
why because I am scarred and scared to let anyone in.
The only ones allowed in are people that I love
and trust but not everyone knows how many secrets
my brain/mind hides away for fear of loosing my self-control.
Why is it all the guys I want are off limits
because of strict parents, different countries
or even whatever reason they have.
Why does my life suck because I am so trust worthy
and fall for all the wrong guys. God where is my help please help me and quickly.
