Alone as always

I love life
But everyone wants me dead
I can't take it anymore
I cry alone in my bed

I wish for someone to hold me
Keep me safe from all my pain
If only someone would care
As I run alone in the rain

It seems I can not be happy
As I once was
I'd do anything to be that person
But I ride alone on my horse

I don't know what to say
And when I do it's wrong
It's just too hard
And I'm alone in the long run

Hello? I'm still here!
Can you here me?
I've never left
I just want to be free

*Not very good any comments plz?* Needs betta heading*