Why did I let Myself Fall

What was I thinking?
I knew you wouldn't change.
What was I feeling?
Before my life got rearranged.

I knew you weren't different.
Yet I still stayed.
I knew that you were still you
Still I remained and prayed.

I knew that I would get hurt.
But I didn't imagine this badly.
I knew you didn't mean it.
When you said that you loved me.

I knew that love was totally false.
Yet, I believed you were true.
I knew that love was what I needed.
Yet I remained with you.

So what was I thinking?
Staying with you?
What was I feeling?
That my feelings were true?

I knew that it would fall apart.
That you weren't really true.
But still I stayed and always heard,
"I really do love you."

And I was right all along.
I ended up in pain.
Now can I ever fall in love?
Can I give my heart up again?

(I wrote this when my boyfriend and I broke up because of something he said about us. I still love him so much, and I'm hurt, but I suppose that life goes on.) Please feel free to vote and comment.