Lonely Night

Last night as a lay down to sleep,
My eyes became watered,
Tears began to run down my face,
Soaking into the satin pillow,
All for a reason which I do not know,
My body became cold and legs started to shake,
The longer I laid there, the more the tears came,
My world of emptiness rushed through my mind,
My hands clinched tighter around the pillow,
And heart started racing fast,
I turned over wishing someone was there,
But all I found was another pillow to hold tight,
So badly I wanted to put this pain to a final end,
As I stood there holding my finger on the metal trigger,
A thousand thoughts past through my head,
Knowing that I wont always be alone is the only thing,
That kept me from pulling that trigger.....

**Yes it's a true story, happened last night (May 23, 2005)**