My Atrophy

Useless…
Why propose life…when all you get is agony…
They do not care for you…
They care even less for me…
Why live…if you know what is to come at death?
Just kill me…
Just kill…me…please…
Life is not worth my aching heart…
Splinters cling to everything underneath my skin…
I cannot heal from these wounds that you have all built around me…
Make this be only a dream…
Please…just kill me…
The pain is so unbearable…and I cannot elude my suicidal thoughts…
Why did they have to go so far as to hurt me…
They feared me…and so now they torment me…
When my shadow was only a darker form of concern…
A deeper facet of truth that no one wants to see…
See…
Do you see now?
You are all blind…
You do not know what I think every night before I go to bed…
If I want to kill you…it is because of how you have hurt me…
Not because you were innocent…or kind…
I think I should kill you…
But my muscles relax as I know it is a futile effort that would just go to waste…
For if I kill you…twenty more just like you will replace your existence…
So it is useless…
I sink to my knees…I can’t make you pay for what you’ve done…
My hair falls down in black disarray…me head hangs down in defeat…
I cannot make you pay for the damage you have done to my heart…
Can you feel my crystal tears hit the dusty earth? Let the whole world hear…
Just kill me now…
Get it over with…
And maybe then I will wake up from this ghoulish dream.
…I can’t.

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