My mom

I don't have a real mom
she's in a better place
too far away for me to see her face
I'll never see it again
that side of her is lost in a far distant place
in a world farther away
from here to outer space
a world so insane
it doesn't exist
except in the mind of my biological mother
my real mom's not in heaven
and not in Hell
but is deeply hidden
from a mind that's not so well
hidden in a shell
from a cold stone heart
the side of my real mom
is on the other part
of my biologicals mother's lost mind
the side of her
that showed her true self
is not the monster she has become
why can't my real mom come home?
the one I remember
the one I cried and begged to see
now it's th other way around
she now demands to see me
ever since before
I turned the age of four
my life was great
I'll do anything to go back to that point of time again
after awhile
it all started to go down the drain
from then to now
all I've felt is pain
the memories
the nightmares
my dreams
I always hoped
they'd become real
this is all because of her
she's the reason this is how I feel
I just wish she'd return
someday
someway
on her own
without medication
or someone's help
I want my real mom
not this monster
they call
my biological mother