Hello or goodbye?

When you first said you were leaving,
I believed you'd walk out the door,
I thought i would miss you,
But right now i miss you so much more.

After all of the things that happened,
I never meant to hurt you so,
It may be too late to say it now,
But i never wanted you to go.

You said that i don't care,
But you couldn't be more wrong,
And now you're leaving me alone,
You won't know i need you to stay strong.

I've said that i am sorry,
I tried so hard to apologize,
I know that you won't forgive me,
I'm sorry for leading us to our demise.

I know i may be selfish,
But what i did made me happy,
I don't expect you to understand,
But i needed to stand up for me.

I do believe it's worth something,
But this problem is in separate sides of my heart,
I just want to have both of you,
But it's tearing me apart.

It's unfair for you to make me choose,
But then, what else can i do?
You know I'd pick you every time,
You're my best friend, it's always you.

You say the damage is done,
And I've ruined everything,
But at least I'm making the effort,
While you sit and do nothing.

You're saying it's all my fault,
And maybe this time it is,
But please can you forgive me,
Don't let everything end like this.

It may be wrong to wonder,
But do you want to be my friend?
It seems to me, you're th one who doesn't care,
And you're happy for things to end.

I can honestly say i tried my best,
So I'm leaving it down to you,
If you can ever forgive me and what i did,
then be my friend, you know what to do.