Wanting What I Hate Her for

I'm not emotional,
I'm not depressed.
I'm not suicidal.
I'm not upset.

I can't be scared,
I can't be sad.
I can't be happy,
I can't be mad.

She wants to die,
It's her own choice.
If the blade's her friend,
I have no voice.

She's just a mom,
A schizo B**ch
I wouldn't miss her,
I'll promise you this.

I'm just her kid,
She doesn't care.
Her life's become,
Too hard to bear.

I've lost control,
My life's a mess.
I've screwed up bad,
I must confess.

I'm feeling now,
What I hate her for.
Wanting death,
Who'd miss a wh**e.

The blade is tempting,
I hear it's call.
So thank you mom,
And good-bye all.

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