I love you but please die.

I thought we were close.
Inseparable while growing up.
But after looking at what you have done now,
I'm just left wondering:
Are all my memories a lie?

Growing up i remember how gentle you were.
It was said you could never hurt a fly.
So when did this change take place?
As your twin surely i should know.

You took that young girl from that party,
And when she said no you forced her.
I hate you for that my dear brother,
But deep inside i still love you too.

The worst thing about it is i knew her.
She was one of my best friends.
She thought she was yours as well.
But now she is no-ones.

You turned her into a self harmer,
You turned her into a loner,
She was too scared to be near anyone,
In case they hurt her too.

I didn't know what was wrong with her.
Till one day she told me what happened,
And stupidly i refused to believe it.
I called her a liar.
The next day she had killed herself.

You knew that i had found out your secret.
You told me you regretted it.
You tried to get forgiveness from me,
But it wasn't me you destroyed.

When i threatened to go to the police you scared me.
You told me it was my fault she was dead.
That if i hadn't called her a liar she would still be here.
You nearly tricked me into keeping silent.

One week then two weeks passed bye,
Still i didn't tell anyone.
Looking back i wish i had of sooner.
But it was when i saw her parents in the street i did.

They said they wished they knew why she did it,
Said it must be hard on me too as i was her friend.
I looked into their unsmiling faces,
and realized they had a right to know.

The next day you were arrested,
at your trial i testified against you.
I'm sorry i had to do that to you.
But most of all I'm sorry you hurt that girl.

A whole year with you inside.
I miss you but am glad your gone.
I love you but loathe you at the same time.
I love you but please die.

just wanna say this did not happen 2 me! xx