I'm loved by many and hated by few,
And I wanted to tell you that I love you.
Later on you'll understand why,
Why I decided I had to die.
I was always unhappy, always depressed,
I had some happy times I will confess.
But every time I was happy I thought of something bad,
And by the end of the night I turned from happy to sad.
I have a loving boyfriend, I have loving friends,
I'm sorry for doing this and bringing it to an end.
But so much went wrong in my life,
It started to go wrong when I picked up the knife.
I started to cut to take away my pain,
Pain from my family and school driving me insane.
Today I drank again, my addictions getting bad,
Downed a 26er, besides cutting that's all I had.
A year ago I couldn't picture me being like this,
Oh those happy times I really do miss.
Today I smoked a twin; it made me feel great,
Who would of thought something illegal could take away your hate.
Every day now I smoke some w-e-e-d,
I'll resort to anything as long as I don't bleed.
Today I decided I would eat no more,
It was either that or I would puke on the floor.
I've finally decided that I've screwed up my life,
And now I have to end it with the same bloody knife.
The knife that started all of this,
I'm sorry to say, but none of it will I miss.
To my friends and family I do love you,
And Nathan I'm sorry, I'll miss all of you.
~I wrote this in like 5 minutes so please comment and rate and tell me what you think of it..thanks~
