Is this it?

Is this it?
Is this my life?
Is this my heart?
Is this how I'm going to feel for the rest of my life?
Feeling like there is no hope,
No light at the end of my dark, hopeless tunnel?
Is there a reason why I can't see anything other then me?
Anything other who I am now and how I feel?
Is this it?
Is this what I have to look forward to?
No love?
No hope?
No happiness?
No life?
No way out other then this?
My silver and my painful saviour?
Are these two my only options?
I look in the mirror and I think...
"I don't want to be me today..."
Is this it?
Why can't someone come and save me?
Make me brand new?
I can't live my lie anymore...
But again I don't want anyone to save me,
Make me brand new,
I hate the thought of it...
Is this it?
I swear to g*d I'm losing what is left of my broken mind...
Wanting to be saved but loathing the idea of it...
Please make my mind stop...
Just for a minute...
Please...