Afraid

I'm afraid to tell you
I'm afraid to let you know
I'm afraid to feel
I'm afraid to give in to it
I'm afraid to finally be able to accept it
I'm afraid to let it be OK
I'm afraid to see it for what it is
a gift
a dark killing gift
a gift i should give to another
I'm afraid I'm undeserving
I'm afraid of when you know
I'm afraid to let you see
the hunger that rips at me
every night
I'm afraid to give in
I'm afraid to lose
I'm afraid of this war thats inside
I'm so afraid