Time for me to Die

Is someone out there listening?
This story is really sad…
My world is full of pressure…
It's making my mind mad…

Is someone out there caring?
My world is oh so cold….
No one seems to care for me…
My story may go untold…

I pick the gleaming knife up…
My reflection lies within…
I feel the cold and bitter steel…
And long to plunge it in…..

No one seems to hear me…
No one seems to care…
I gently run the knife across my wrists
And now I'm scared….

My boyfriend left me for my friend…
She was my best friend too…
He loves her now and holds her close…
My whole world is so doomed…

My parents seem to nag and nag…
About my falling grades…
My friends don't want to hear of it…
And no one knows my pain…

So no one cares about me…
I write this and I cry…
For on this fateful evening…
I swear I'll take my life…

No one seems to love me…
And no one seems to care…
So I'll show every one of them…
My body will catch their glare…

What's this in my backpack?
A letter from my mom?
It says I love you, daughter of mine,
Forever, love, your Mom…

What's this here in my math book?
A note from that boy in class…
He seems to have a crush on me…
Am I finally loved at last?

No! These are just distractions…
I've finally made up my mind…
It's time to end this sorrow…
It's time for me to die…

I take the pills and drink the bleach
That I placed out the night before…
I'm vomiting now profusely…
But I keep on taking more…

I plunge the knife into my soul
And feel my life dissipate…
I don't want to die anymore…
But I fear that it's too late…

My little sister enters the room
And see the blood and gore…
She screams for my mom to come get me
As I bleed upon the floor…

The darkness clouds my vision…
The emptiness is great...
I'm scared of what is happening…
Were my family much too late?

I wake up in a hospital,
My stomach aching so…
My family is all around me...
My friends are there also….

I can't believe that they are here...
I thought nobody cared…
But everyone did love me…
That's why they all were there….

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