So stupid....

How could i be so stupid,
To let this happen again,
To fall into the same pattern,
That once put me to shame.

How can i let him do it,
How can i just agree,
When i know that i don't want to,
Why won't he listen to me?

How come he'll take the piss,
When i don't want to play,
Saying baby please I'm begging
Can't wait till the next day.

And I'm so f**king stupid,
In the end i just agree,
Hating him so much after,
For putting that pressure on me.

Again and again it will happen,
This pattern is so hard to break,
And i know i should finish with him,
But i love him so much it's not fake.

I try so hard to stay strong,
To just make him listen to me,
But in the end i just give up,
I know i can't make him see.

And through out it all,
I just want to break down and cry,
But i can't show him I'm weak,
Can't show him he makes me want to die.

Not finished yet, i wrote it the other night after my boyfriend left. Please comment on my work it really means allot to me. Thanks xx xx