Not real

The dark spiral of night
Swallowed all sadness and pain
Englufed my happiness and glee
I will never feel again

Rigid movements
Robotic tears and robotic grin
Hollow shell, hollow heart
Exist only for him

Have no mind or soul
No stories or jokes to tell
Sight so hazy, going crazy
Can't see how far I fell

Lost all control
So pointless and small
No voice to get heard
No presence at all

Life of scripted lines
Controlled by a puppeteer
Exploding inside again and again
Am I even really here?

Deep eyes with no sight
Deep skin with no feel
Deep heart with no love
Deep smile that's not real

I am not alive
Not sitting at home
Not crying a fountain
Not really alone

We do not exist
My lover and I
My heart was not broken
It was all a huge lie

I soon will be born
Alive I will be
A life without him
Is the right life for me