Just a Pack of Reds

I'm out on my porch just sitting all alone
Smoking on a fresh pack of reds
That I got from the grocery store

They usually help with my depression
Help to forget my pain

But this is one hurt that these reds can't seem to get my to forget

I had to buy a new lighter
Couldn't bear to light up with the one you left here the other night

And the smoke rises higher as I look for answers that arnt there

How could you do this..
How could you bear to hurt me like this

I cant stand to hear your name
But the bad thing is its nearly the same as mine

I need to cry...
Or to scream at the top of my lungs
But I'm always surrounded by friends that wont let me feel bad because of you

They tell me I can get better
When I know I cant

I guess I'm destine to be heart broken
Because thats how I always am

Now I cant wait for the day you leave for army
The same day only a week ago I dreaded

She'll fell sad that your gone not me
Ill fell relived because I wont have to worry about breaking down at the sight of you again.

My red is getting shorter and not long from now it will be gone

So I light up another and flick this one to the ground and watch it burn out
Just like my love for you

And I start on my new life
Just like another red
One breath at a time