I hate it

I hate it,
I hate everything,
I don’t know why,
It’s not like I’m the only one, in this situation,
Sure loads of people know 2 people, who have died,
But are they both under 18,
An in the space of just 6 months,
Little things tip me over the edge now,
I never used to be like this,
I want to be how I used to be,
Why can’t I?
Someone said to me I am a good actress,
Cos on the outside I’m smiling,
But on the inside I’m crying,
Although if you saw me now,
You’d see me crying on the inside and out,
When I’m out of stoke and away from here,
Everything seems better,
Maybe its cos everywhere I look I see memories,
Ive got baggage it follows me everywhere,
Except out of this county.

I want to break down but I can’t,
I want to cry,
I want to talk,
I want to scream,
And I want to shout,
But most of all,
I want this to be a dream,
I want to wake up one day,
And everything to be how it used to be,
I wish I was little again,
Life was simple then,
I never thought any of this would happen,
I wish I could talk to you about it but I can’t,
Snelly is easier to talk to cos he isn't always there, and he knows what to say and stuff cos he’s trained,
I say I’m OK, I’m not really but hiding it seems easier,
Normally I can talk for England,
But about my feelings face to face I cant just say them,
I think Ive realized its happened and thats made it worse,
Everything is stressing me out, I cant concentrate,
When I try I just think of everything I shouldnt.
I hate it…

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