Help me

As I go on each day I hide behind my mask. but nobody knows the pain I'm in cause no one cares to ask. I hide away Inside myself and try to find a way out. but every time things get better I'm always filled with doubt.
you don't see the pain in my eyes and how often I run home to the darkness and let go and cry. I stay secluded in opaqueness as the blood runs down my arm. I never thought for once I could ever cause so much harm. As I lay here alone hiding my heart forever in stone I try to scream but no one can hear me. I lead good life or so to some it would seem but when I'm home only God hears my bleeding pleas. I need someone to hold on to cause no longer can I be strong. when will I find my place where I'll forever belong? If only someone would take me in their arms and be a my shoulder to catch my tears because all I want is someone to simply take away my only fear.