Going Numb

I have these thoughts,
these thoughts I shouldn't
have.
Thoughts of crying.
Thoughts of dieing.
I hear these things
I shouldn't hear.
Sounds of hearts breaking.
Sounds of souls aching.
I see these things I
shouldn't see.
Seeing hate.
Seeing fear.
I feel these things
I shouldn't feel.
Feelings of depression.
Feelings of a shattered heart.
Piercing needles in
my flesh.
I'll be numb soon
and I won't think
anything, hear anything
see anything or feel
anything, at all!!