Loves anxiety

I approach,
Fluttering, buzzing,
Heart screaming.
Maybe, this is the day…
This the day she hates you.

I stand,
Same corner….same time.
I wait.
Late…
A ring,
She’s going to call it off

“Come inside, can’t come out. Not yet”
Relief
I knock,
Stomach, flying around…
I love this girl

An angel opens the door,
I smile…
Why am I so nervous?
“Wait for my sister to come home”
We sit together,
I reach out,
Grasp her hand.
This is beautiful

We talk…
I want to hug her
I say a charming word,
My arms lay out,
An angel falls within them.
I don’t want to let go
She pulls away,
I relax
I don’t deserve her

“Tracie?”
“Yes?”
“I love you”
I embrace an angel again,
Did she mean it?