I Close My Eyes

Every time I close my eyes
It all goes away
All the pain I despise
No longer there to stay

I see you there
Smiling at me
With a loving stare
No one else can see

But every time I look again
Everything goes back
I wish it was back to then
When I had that happiness I lack

What Id give to hold you
Cuddling you tight
Because the sweetest dream doesn't do
I still want to give up this fight

I hang on to your words
Never needing my lies
Never making my thoughts seem absurd
So once again I close my eyes