Living in a Nightmare

As the tears run down my cheeks
I think about the good times
The happy times
A time when i loved life
And everything in it
But now
my love of life is gone
and has been replaced
with deep sorrow
When I lie in bed at night
I cry myself to sleep
Thinking of my life
My sad
Worthless life
I dream of slitting my wrists
And watching the blood flow
How I worship the peace
The peace i know of only in my dreams
But then I wake up
And return to the nightmare of my life