I am free

After dreaming of you again, i slowly awoke
looked and saw that a spot on my pillow was soaked
irritated, i quickly wipe my wet cheeks
another night gone by, that I've wept in my sleep.

i get in the shower, my tears blend in
take a deep breath to sooth the ache from within
the splashing of the water drowns out the sound
the cries of your name and screaming out loud.

i wipe off the mist and stare in the mirror
my chin still trembling, my eyes showing fear.
its as if my heart will never accept reality
it was supposed to be you and me, one day starting a family.

Plans have change yet I'm still stuck in the past.
being alone is too much for my heart to grasp.
our memories are clouding my vision
moments locked in my mind- my soul is imprisoned.

I'm running out the door full of rage.
on my knees in the rain trying to speak but too afraid.
praying to god i let my feelings flow
asking for him to make this sadness go.

will i ever accept that you are gone?
insecurity has torn me apart for much too long.
Relaxed now, i go lay down and drift away to sleep
wandering off to my land of grief

in the morning i awake facing the wall
expecting to see the wet place where i let my tears fall.
but when i was done searching there were no spots to see..
the chains have been broken- my soul has been set free.