A tortured little soul...

by Jordan   May 31, 2005


I’m in a dark room
After I shut the door
I stumble quietly across
The solid oak wood floor

How can this happen
I sink down to my knees
I fly my head upward
God help me please!

I have already taken out
The tiny little knife
The one that I have used so many times
To almost end my life

I cut myself regularly
I am a victim of inside pain
A tortured little soul
Who’s slowly gone insane

At school I am a very happy girl
Who smiles everyday
And yet I sit here thinking
When will things finally go my way?

Friends don’t know this inside
That I so darkly fear
Friends don’t know about my pain
And my many many tears

I tell everyone that I’m fine
When I know that it’s not true
I miss living carefree
I’m sick of living blue

So here I am in this bathroom
Vomiting up my insides
Slitting my writs and crying
It’s not like anyone cares besides

Death is staring me coldly in the face
I guess it is my turn
Life is a complex obstacle
One I didn’t completely learn

Blood drops down my arms
And suddenly the world twists
It turns completely dark
I guess from slitting my wrists

I open my eyes to my name
“Jordan we’re here for you”
I am screaming on the inside
I thought that I was through

I wanted to die
Why can’t you let me go?
Why don’t you understand?!
I guess I’ll never know

My mind starts to race
Then a tear rolls down my cheek
I want to find the right words
And then I do and finally speak

“Mom, dad, sister, brother
Why can’t you just let me go?
I wanted to be an angel
So bad you’ll never know”

Know one said anything
Mom just hugged me tight
And then I prayed again to god
That all would be all right

***Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. It means so much to me!***

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  • 19 years ago

    by xfAdInGxaWaYx

    That is a g8 poem well done

  • 19 years ago

    by Rebecca Morgan

    Aww liked it. These poems must mean alot to you. It reminds me of my friend Tiffany. You should read one of hers cause i know it would mean alot
    http://www.poems-and-quotes.com/sad/poems.php?id=250082- if u want...

    Love u

  • 19 years ago

    by Jasonsboo

    That was a great poem! 5/5 I love reading your poems they are very heartful and i can tell that they mean a lot to you! Keep up the good work and continue writing! You have a great talent for writing poems. I enjoy reading your poems. Maybe, if you wanted oyu could read a few of my poems and comment them. It would mean a lot to me. I don't really have a lot of people reading my poems and I would really appreciate it if you would comment on them. Thanks. Keep writing, can't wait to see more of your work.
    Luv ya hun!! Brittiany

  • 19 years ago

    by Jasonsboo

    That was a great poem! 5/5 I love reading your poems they are very heartful and i can tell that they mean a lot to you! Keep up the good work and continue writing! You have a great talent for writing poems. I enjoy reading your poems. Maybe, if you wanted oyu could read a few of my poems and comment them. It would mean a lot to me. I don't really have a lot of people reading my poems and I would really appreciate it if you would comment on them. Thanks. Keep writing, can't wait to see more of your work.
    Luv ya hun!! Brittiany

  • 19 years ago

    by BLaCK_RoSeS

    hey great poem!
    5/5
    PeaCe. LoVe. PrOsPeRiTy