Is it just me.. or is it every time something starts to look up
EVERYTHING at once falls down
I have these images that i hold in my mind
about the way things should be
about the way things should remain
yet somehow I'm always slapped with a reality check
is it just me or is everything around me falling apart?
i want you to feel the hurt that i felt when you left
i want you to cry yourself to sleep for months at a time
i want you to sit by the phone and wait for her to call you every night
i want you to hear her voice and it just make you sick
i want you to think about the memories you share together
and then i want you to feel like you'd be better off dead
thinking the things that i always dreamed would happen
thinking the things that i could never say aloud
i just want you to feel the pain that you caused me
i want you to know what it feels like to be broken
but somehow deep down inside of me
all i want is for you to be happy
i want you to realize that you lost the best thing you ever had
i want you to tell me that everything will be OK
most of all, i just want you back
i sit at my desk and stare out the window every day
i think about the things i could have changed about what went wrong
i think about all the good times we shared together
i think about you, and i smile.
then i get to thinking about us
and somehow, everything just goes wrong
everything falls apart
my world crumbles right before me
and theres nothing i can do about it
but sit there and hope that you're doing the same
will things ever be the same?
will anything ever be the way it was,
the way its supposed to be
or is it just me?
