Trying to appease you all,
But every time I try I fall,
Being my own woman is wrong,
I'm just searching for somewhere I belong,
Once upon a time I knew,
The place I would always be was with you,
Now I feel like I've been dropped again,
Reaching out for someone, something, going insane,
Nothing I do seems right,
Everything in life turns into a fight,
Battling my way to a home,
Somewhere to feel safe, less alone,
Offers of help go unwanted,
A shoulder to lean on, dismissed,
A friendly smile repaid with a frown,
A hand to help up instead pulls down,
Constantly battling for a balance,
Not pure happiness, just a fighting chance,
Happiness comes at a price,
But I wish for it always in spite,
My friends, caring and true,
It's time to confide in you,
My bright smile has faded,
My outlook on life now jaded,
My love for you ever growing,
Yet you spend you're life never knowing,
You can't see how I feel inside,
No matter how close or far I still hide,
The girl beneath the surface,
Shying away under a thick carcass,
Begging for the powers to help each of you everyday,
Yet is it selfish of me to say?
To request, never demand,
Support and understanding, no-one can reprimand,
Your choice, entirely under your control,
To give or take, help me out of this hole,
I'm feeling low, but I'm struggling to keep my grip,
I'm not at the bottom but I can still see it's deep,
I don't want to fall any further, please,
My arms and legs are weak, dieing to release,
The troubles I've seen, and experienced,
Are weighing heavy, I can't complete the final distance,
Save me from this dark abyss,
Tell me your secrets, help me reminisce
