My Deepest Fear

Everything is perfect
I can't imagine it getting better
On the other hand
I can imagine it getting worse
I've been hurt too many times to count
It's not you
It's not her
I can't seem to let go of that fear
I love you so much
I don't think i can go on without you
Please forgive me for this fear
It runs so deep within me
You reassure me every time i get down
"I will be here for you always" you say
I roll my eyes and agree to make you happy
But deep within my soul
I'm screaming
Why can't I trust you
Why can't I fully love you
Someday I will get over this
Until then
I'm sorry for this fear

*For Rob, I'm sorry that I have a fear of you leaving me for my friends. Please forgive me*