No Way I'll Lose One More

*This poem is dedicated to Stephanie*

I shake restlessly as I look at your face
As you're laying in bed fast asleep
I can't believe you're in this position
You almost went too deep

I wish that I had powers
To rid all of your pain
The pain tearing at your precious heart
And driving you insane

Everytime I look into your eyes
Danielle's face comes to mind
You've turned out to be just like your sister
Your escape you tried to find

The pain I feel is horrible
When you ask for my goddamn blade
When you see my arm and all the cuts
The crimson threads I've made

But please don't feign for the knife
When you're lying in your hospital bed
When you have no strength in your tiny body
When I found you almost dead

Now I feel I must give up the knife
Because I want the best for you
Because you always seem to look up to me
And follow the stupid things I do

But at this moment in my life
It seems my knife is all I've got
I sit and I bleed night after night
Praying that I'll never get caught

But you always catch me Stephanie
You always check my arm
To see if I let out any anger
To see if I still self-harm

But all I ask of you right now
Is to please give up the knife
And please don't end up like your sister
And end your precious life

For now just please get better
And get out of the hospital bed
Stop wasting away your precious life
Stop wishing you were dead

As much as you look up to me
I also look up to you
So if you manage to end your life
Know that I'll be dead too

I already felt like killing myself
When I found Danny on the floor
I've already lost one sister
There's no way I'll lose one more

*Stephanie is Danielle's sister. Danielle is my best friend who committed suicide. Stephanie is only 12 years old and she attempted suicide and is in the hospital... good luck Steph*

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