I am all this…

To tired to fight,
To weak to win,
To lost to find my destination,
To crestfallen to try.

A shell of someone else,
A lost soul,
A useless nothing,
A nobody pretending to be somebody.

All this pain,
All this suffering,
All this fighting,
All this struggling.

I don’t wanna fight,
I don’t wanna live,
I wanna run away,
I wanna be alone.

Can’t keep fighting!
Can’t see an end!
Can’t keep this up,
Can’t hide anymore.

Wanna be numb,
Wanna be lost,
Wanna be alone,
Wanna be something I’m not.

I really want you,
I really want love,
I really want understanding,
I really want to feel something more then nothing.