I sit here smiling trying to hide the pain. i want to see the sunshine but I'm drowning in rain.
you love her now what can i say? i was never good enough for you in any way.
she wants you now and i have to let go. i want you back but you'll never know.
i cry at night remembering when you were mine. trying to ease the pain but i can't go back in time.
i sit here talking to you trying to figure out what to say. i want to tell you i love you but i know it will come out the wrong way.
i try to pretend I'm happy even though I'm really not. i fight back the tears holding on to what I've got.
what did i do wrong to make you want to let go. did i ever hurt you in anyway? if i did i want to know.
i sit there staring straight at the clock trying to end the day. i write my suicide note as i slowly slip away.
the note was found by my best friend. he read it with tearful eyes as i explained my life needed to end.
he looked at it closely with a tearful eye. i watched from heaven as he said good-bye.
the note read the words that replayed in my head. you don't deserve to be here. you're better off dead.
here i am gone to heaven i miss you all a lot. nobody will miss me cause everyone forgot. i am who i am. this is the person i want to be. I'm sorry i had to leave but he didn't love me.
he fell to the floor trying to search for words to say. but all that came out was i wish she was here today.
i love her with everything i just never knew. she cared about me like she does after all i put her through.
i treated her bad but she didn't care. she loved me even though i was never there.
she treated me like i was the greatest when i treated her so wrong. i still wonder to this day how she could ever love me so long?
dedicated to him ((Ethan))
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