Despair

Staring at the glass half empty
Not half full
You say I'm a mystery
But I'm a mystery to myself
I have words
Running across everywhere
I don't even know what I feel
It hurts my head as i think about it
So emotionless
Feelings combining
Worlds turning
Feelings soaking in
From every corner, every street
Thoughts having no thoughts
Daydreaming
I'm my own puzzle my
Own myth
I feel like I'm screaming in my head
It's so loud
My fingers pulling my hair
Harder, harder
Pain increasing
Run away
Let it out , let it out
Building up inside
Wanting to just explode
Then i pass out
I don't even know what I feel
You must say that girl is messed up
She doesn't even know
Whats going on
I try to let you in
It stifles me
It hurts
I try to hard , i really do
It's a struggle to show emotion
No tears fall
Just caught up as I begin to fall
Nightmares becoming reality
This can't be healthy
I don't even understand myself
I'm somewhere dark
Silent whispers increasing
Yelling, Rumbling, Screeching
Loud noises
Feelings branching out to one
Lost in a maze
Can't find my way around
But one feeling is clear
Despair...