My Destiny Calls

This was also a song, but I've changed it to a poem..
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Grass fills the sky
Clouds grow in the fields
Stars take over day
And I am guarding my shield

Everything feels so wrong here
Nothing is what it seems
I don't know what love is
But I can't stand not to have it

My shield should be guarding me
I feel like I can't speak out
Because no one will hear me
This is not the life I asked for

I can taste my fear
I'm afraid to look in the mirror
I don't want you
And I know that I don't want me

I feel like I have no choice
I don't want to hold my fate
Just won't stare death in the eye
And I can't, won't, hold my destiny.