I Hate

I hate this
i hate not feeling your kiss
i hate not being able to feel your arms
and to fall into your sweet charm
i hate not feeling your warmth on my face
i hate not being in the same place
i hate crying all the time
i hate having this on my mind
but its there
and ur there
and im here
and i hate how its not fair
i hate not being able to do anything about it
i hate how everything turned to shit
i hate being so helpless
i hate feeling selfish
i hate not being able to see you
i hate not being able to feel you
i hate being so alone
i hate staying at home and just thinking of this
i hate thinking and longing for your kiss
i hate to hear you cry
i hate to see us try
i hate crying
and i hate that i feel like im dying
but the only thing i don't hate is you
and i can never hate you
i love you so much
and i hate longing for your touch