That's so strange, I've just written a poem about my anorexia, and then i looked on my favourites and you're talking about such similar things. You do it for such different reasons though, don't ever think so low of yourself, always be strong, i know how hard it is but don't go back to it.
Love always xx

I'm so glad your strong enough not to go back, it isnt healthy or good for you, you are rite...
and your not ugly or fat ma honey, you are perfectly sized. and very beautiful.

love you lots
x