Im sorry, but i had to do it

I'm sorry you had to witness what u saw. You weren't supposed to see me this way. I'm sorry mom for scaring u when i almost lost my life the first time,but the pain was just to great to bare anymore. So i took up the blade one last time. I'm sorry dad for calling u those names you know i didn't mean it i was just to confused when u asked what was going on.I'm sorry Matt for taking advantage of your love all i wanted was to be your greatest hope, but look at me now nothing but a swollen corps. I just want you to know that i love you and i want you to do the things that i know you can and maybe a little for me too. Hans i know i left you there all alone but i couldn't take it anymore it was just hard for me to see you go through all those things and not tell me that anything was wrong. I love you all and I'm sorry that i have to go all i want you to know is that I'm free of pain now suspended in all time. And Izaiah, my Little boo i love you and i know you don't understand now but i want you to know that i love yo all very much and don;t cry for me in sorrow but smile knowing that i am ok.