The Lies

Why do you have to be mean?
Why are you so cruel?
Do you realize what you're doing to me?
Am I just another tool?

Calling me a liar
And many other names
All of which are untrue
I'm tired of these games

When I tell you something
You hardly ever believe me
What did I do for such distrust?
How did this come to be?

I don't lie to you, really
Just be jokingly sarcastic
I tell you the truth right after
Is it really all that drastic?

It's not all my fault
I was raised in this way
Constantly surrounded by sarcasm
It was always on display

I'm sorry for this folly
I'm sorry for the lies
Although their not lies, really
They're more like helpless cries

Can't you be supportive?
I'm going through so much
Words bring pain or pleasure
I just need a helping touch

I'm sorry that I'm bitter
I'm sorry if I'm mad
It's hard not to be sarcastic
When I'm feeling down and sad

I'm trying hard to be more honest
Please don't turn against me
I can't stand the pain of rejection
Or you not being with me

I love you so much
And it hurts me to know
That you think I lie all the time
It tears my heart so low

It brings down my self-esteem
And I lose my "self-reputation"
My eyes close and I begin to cry
So tired from all this frustration

So, I'm just really sorry
Just please understand
I'm trying to work on my problems
I need a helping hand