I have something in my mind a lot
It’s hard to say out loud to you
Every single day I wait
For them to call
But it never seems to happen
I got to tell you something right now
If someone calls you up on the phone
And says that they are your best friends in the world
But it never seems that they want to hang out
They always seem to have an excuse not to come
I’ve got a question for you, Berlin
Are they really your friend?
What should I do?
I mean I tell them things that are private to me
Sometimes they threaten me in ways it’s hard
If I don’t answer their question at all
They will threaten that they will hang up
Or never talk
But you know you wouldn’t tell your personal things
That’s the biggest mistake I made to myself
I’m really afraid and scared a lot.
I’m afraid that they might tell it to their friends to much
And if they do they might talk about things on my back
Or maybe even laugh
I cry in tears so much
To figure out what’s wrong with me
Am I that gay to hang out?
I need an answer really I do
I can’t handle it anymore
For that is the problem
This is probably the hardest thing
I can’t handle this alone
Tell me what to do or what to say
I do want them as a friend
Cause it seems that they know
More than they should
Every little day I shed in tears
But when you call or I'm me online
It brings my day up
All the pain washes away
I don’t want this anymore
I don’t want to feel less than someone
There is something I got to tell you
It’s a secret I haven’t told anyone
When someone ask me what to do
I always do what they say
Everyone always it’s wrong to do
But this was me my whole life
But the thing I can’t give
Is things like money or things to buy?
But if it’s someone priceless
And they ask
I always seem to do it
With out questioning
So please do help me
I don’t know what to do
The question that runs through my mind
Am I supposed to be here?
Was I a mistake?
I’m trying my best to work it out
With all the pain that comes to me
So I got to go
And there is more to say
But I got to leave before I shed more tears
