Lost

How funny things work out in life
I knew you for only a moment
Then you were a part of me
I can’t say how it felt
There are so many words and feeling
I still think of what was done
I will always think of it and remember
Why weren’t we thinking
Then I wouldn’t have to remember
But because of it I remember always
I remember I didn’t believe it, I couldn’t
I remember when I told you
The way you were and the things you said
In a way I was glad you had some heart
And then I seen a part of you, the real you
You are a man
Yet still a boy in ways
I wanted to ask you things
Yet I’m scared
Like how you truly felt?
Do you wish we were thinking?
Do you wish we had changed the out come?
And let it be?
Do you think of how your life would be?
Were you glad you didn’t have to go?
And be there on the day of its end?
Was it easier for you that way?
To pretend it wasn’t real?
That it was just a bad dream?
Were you glad you didn’t have to see
the life you made?
I want to know and not feel like I was alone
Yet at the same time I’m scared to ask
I don’t want you to think I need you now because of this
Or you owe me something
But its true I felt and fell all alone in this
I want to share my feelings
But it don’t feel right to share them with you
We weren’t together
It was just something we did when we felt the need
So it don’t feel right to tell you these things
Right now your saying then why do this?
Why tell me this if it don’t fell right?
All I can say is I guess it’s closer
You were a chapter in my life
That needs to end
I think you’re a nice guy
Funny and a little crazy at times
But your you and I’m me
I think if I could forget what was done
I could still be just a friend
But I know I can’t so I wish you well
On your way in life
My you have many happy memories
With those you love and yet to come
And with this I say goodbye