i thought i could trust you today, i know its been a while, so much has happened and I'm becoming older and feeling alone again like i always used too. I'm not a little girl anymore and my life is becoming hard to deal with, my parents got divorced three years ago thats when i stopped writing in your pages, and then me and mom bought a house and we were doing great, my dad met this lady and she seemed nice always buying me stuff and ever so friendly, i got to go to new York and stay with my dad and his gf for a while and i got molested there. i came home and told my mom, since that day things have been screwed up, i don't know who to trust anymore. my mom is depressed and i wish it would all rewind and change. I'm depressed as well, i can hear my moms cries at night. it makes me cry as well. i don't know what went wrong. i wanna tell you my secrets, i can trust you to keep them i hope, so heres what Ive done. school is not good since i stopped writing to you. i probably wouldn't be here if i didn't meet my boyfriend, he is the greatest. he is my life right now. god doesn't seem to even care about me. i dont really believe in god but it would be something to live for if he seemed to care. god hates me and the devil wants me. i might as well give in my soul to keep right now. dear diary who the hell am i now
