I can never tell

Outside in the storm,
The rain falls on my face
Hardly different from my tears
The lightning reflecting the surges
That I feel pulsing inside
I would tear my heart and let it bleed
Just so you could feel it
Hold my heart in your palm
Girl you already do, you do
I want you to know but I can never tell
I can't risk losing you as I have you
At least this way I'm a part of your life
There's something that I love so much
About you, I want you so badly
I want to be with you now
Hold you through the storm
Surrounded by lightning and rain
In the deepest dark of night
I would be content to just cuddle you
Hold you close, hold your hand
Nothing more for the rest of my life
As long as it meant that you would be mine
You're like a dark, black butterfly
So beautiful and dark, irrisitable
I would give up my smile so that you could have yours
Hold back my tears so that yours could flow
Hold you tight, take on your fears
Caress you in a gentle way but cage my carnal desires for more
I would catch lightning in a glass jar
To wash away the darkness and pain you feel
Use my sould to dry your tears
I would die for you, lie for you
But you can never know
I can never tell you, because it would scare you away
When I hug you I want it to be more
But you are only my friend
And that's all it can ever be
Because I'm too scared to tell you
To tell you that I love you
And that I need you near me
And it pains me so much!
It's hard not to kiss you
When you sit close to me
I would do anything, to make sure you were happy
Even if it meant going away
Outside in the storm
The rain falls on my face
Hardly different from my tears
I want you here with me
But I stand alone
I will always stand alone.

*please comment! I was really sad when I wrote this. YES, I'm a girl and YES I really feel that way about her. :(