Die

I let my feelings out on paper,
Cause it's the easiest way.
Without it,
I wouldn't be here today.
Every day I wake up knowing,
Something bad is soon to come.
But I still put on a smile,
And, well, just play dumb.
Pretend I'm fine,
Knowing I'm not.
But not really caring,
And giving it all I've got.
My soul, my heart, and my mind,
Are all of deep dark black.
For I can't find happiness,
It's what I lack.
My mask covers up the bad,
But I still know it's there.
I've lost all I ever had,
And it haunts me ever day.
But even so...I will never have the heart,
The heart to share...
You'll never know my feelings,
Because with them I am safe.
If you knew,
I'd lose all faith.
I'm sorry that I love you,
And I'm sorry that I care.
Cause to you I'm just nothing,
Another nothing there.
You sit and laugh at me,
When I try and explain how I feel.
You just don't seem to care,
So my heart won't heal.
You don't get what you do,
To me each and every day.
Do you not understand,
Every night I make myself pay?
I told you once,
and I will again.
You're the reason I cut.
Don't even pretend to care,
Behind this wall I'm shut.
You once said "I don't like it when you cry."
Well my love,
Now I want to die.
I don't cry anymore,
Only tears of crimson red.
I know no more you care,
If I wound up dead.
So don't even try and say,
"I don't like it when you cry."
I'm not falling for it anymore,
Because I'm sick of the lies.
I'm sick of everything,
And the endless cries.
I'm ready to die,
And you can't do anything about it.
Because I'm not listening to you,
I DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
Don't talk to me anymore,
Don't lie at all.
Because I'm ready to go.
I'm ready to fall.